Date: Tue, 18 Jul 2000 11:45:56 -0400 (EDT) From: X-Sender: sin@sayer_of_the_law.evilgenius.net To: nycgoth-l@necronomi.com Subject: all about me I guess I had better do this today, as tomorrow supposedly work will get busy until the end of October. I'm a net developer and i work with ron & nancy. it's pretty neat, but i've been neglecting the things that really matter to me, like painting and writing. I have a BFA from Carnegie Mellon UNiversity and I graduated last May. I really miss college and my friends. I moved to NYC promptly after graduating and bought a place on east 38th street, which i love. I spent most of my free time while I was growing up in manhattan (i'm originally from Huntington Bay, out on LI). I feel a little burned out because i've been doing this so long, and i'm currently being a withdrawn hermit (my only solace being my boyfriend, Mathias) partly due to the fact that i am just getting over Scarlet Fever, a horrible infectious disease that i hope none of you ever get, and partly due to a love/hate relationship with a very evil drug. Actually, i haven't been quite the same since my beloved cat, Pestilence, took a dive off my balcony and died. I miss her so much. I have 1 cat named Saskia and a new kitten named Natasha that i adore. Also a big Koi named Gomez that my best friend, adam gave to me when he moved away. almost everyone that i've been friends with has fallen in love with me for some reason. i only have one friend that isn't a boy. i have purple hair and very green eyes and am taller and thinner than average. i've been accused of being winona ryder, cristina ricci and sarah gilbert so many times i've lost count. I'm clinically psychotic and chronically depressed. Sometimes these things manifest themselves more than others. I am trying desperately to prevent history from repeating itself. I just want it to go away. i jsut want to be loved. I am really terrified of getting old and dying, to the point where sometimes it seems like a good idea to kill myself just so i don't have to ever get old. I just turned 23, by the way. I have fantasies of getting married, having children and a white picket fence. Maybe someday. i just want to be happy, but i think too much. I wish there was some way to turn off my brain for a little while. i'm fragile, extremely sensitive, and really quite insane. I read a lot, write often, watch lots of movies and have a lot of sex. It's good. I hate horror movies though. my favorite bands are Lords of Acid, tricky, the cranes, shreikback,joy division, depeche mode and others i can't be bothered to think of. my favorite movie is Fear & Loathing in Las vegas and anything else that can make me laugh. hrm. maybe i should have waited until tomorrow to write this. it's a little bit doom & gloom. i didn't mean to. Excess and Oohs, ++Allison++ www.niceboots.net