Date: Mon, 17 Jul 2000 22:48:44 -0400 From: Jayde Chabot X-Accept-Language: en To: NYCgoth-L@necronomi.com Subject: Reintroduction - Long My name is Jayde (but if you have to know I was born Jodie - I'm in the theatre... if actors can have stage names... so can I *snickers*). I want to get that little bit of info out in the open because I've met several people who feel insulted or annoyed when people adopt new names. It's not an issue of pretension for me, but just something I think is pretty and suits me. Anyhoo... I'll be moving to NYC at the end of the month with my husband. I'm hoping to hear back this week if I have a job at the Juilliard School of Drama otherwise I'll be working on web pages until I get a job. Ewhhh... Personal info... (Hope you don't mind the grocery list quality this has) I love to dress up (note the costume designer reference), I consider myself of the vampyre goth variety. If you think this means I'm a head case who thinks I'm really a vampire you're wrong. If you think this means I'm pretensious beyond belief, you're wrong. As I said, I just love to dress up. I think it's healthy to be able to pretend (if only in your mind) that for the barest of moments that you are immortal. It means the next day when you wake up and realize you are just some wierd girl and not a supernatural creature you feel a little more aware of how much life should be loved, cherished and enjoyed because - face it... we all die. In a way my interest with vampires has made be a sillier person and not depressing as some people seem so quick to believe. I design and build a lot of my own fetish clothes but also like shopping for good deals and ideas on what to build next. I'm hoping with the move (since I won't be in grad school anymore) I'll have some time to sell my stuff to others... I love working with leather and heavy weight vinyl to make CyberPunk fetish armor. Hmmmm I've been a practicing Wiccan / pagan since I was a sophmore in highschool. It was difficult in high school because a lot of people thought I was a Satan worshipper. *shrugs* Slowly though people are bcoming more aware that nature based religion is becoming more and more valued as our world becomes more and more innodated with computerized stuff. I'm involved in the BDSM 'scene'... I hope to be more so after the move. I've been off an on for about 7 years... mostly because it's been difficult for me to find time and play partners who don't creep me out. I think it's cause I'm short and too 'cute'. *smirks* My musical tastes are wide ranging (Loreena McKennit and Dead Can Dance to Godsmack and Orgy, to Switchblade Symphony and David Bowie to name a few. But I also listen to the BeeGees on occassion and a few other things that would make the traditional goth turn even whitre in the face. I will admit that I am not up on every change in the music biz (underground or otherwise). I am frusterated when people think I'm not really dedicated to the scene because I don't know every song by every band by heart. I love clubbing and dancing and when I hear a song I like and am familiar with I dance. Since the DJs seldomly tell you what song you are listening to (and I find play lists less than helpful) I have little way of connecting names and music. A couple months ago a band called Bella Morte (eh or was it Belle Morte???) play at a club I go to up here in Connecticut. I can recognize their stuff when I hear it because of certain distinctions they have. So I feel a little better when I can figure that much out. Oh... I'm bi (nuf said). And married... but my husband and I have a very special relationship since we were friends for 5 years before dating. I won't say that we have an open relationship because that makes it sound like I still sleep around. But I'll say we're not closeminded to possibilities. Authors / books I like... definately Nancy A Collins - her portrayl of Sonya Blue as a kick ass non sappy vampire is really great. I also have a special place in my heart for the Dragonlance series (the basic series... not the 62 additions not written my Weis and Hickman). I read them when I was a kid (I guess when most other people were reading Tolken) and loved them. I also enjoy The Spellsinger series by Alan Dean Foster - the world he creates has animals who walk and talk like people in a fantasy environment... they are hysterical. There's others two but I'm sure that's enough. I have two cats who I love... and no kids for a very long time!! Whee! I also LARP (that's live action role play for those who don't know). Yes I play D&D... I'm a geek... so what. Fact I just finished a campaign last night with some friends which was way cool. Anyway... that's bound to be enough to bore you... oh... *smirks* I have a lot of tattoos and some piercings... *shrugs and snickers*. I want to keep the moments that I feel old to a minimum... hopefully I'll meet some of you in NYC and will alleviate tht small space of sorrow in my head. BTW... I'm only 25... my mom said I was born old. *smirks* Pleh... maturity can be poopy...kids do get to have a lot more fun than adults... makes me wonder why I was in such a hurry. *smiles and waves* -Jayde > The world finds out tomorrow with certainty that there is no god, no > devil, no kum-bah-ay, no roasting marshmellows over fire and brimstone. > Nothing at all in fact. Wouldn't bother me... My view of the divine isn't as a being but as an energy... it's obvious that energy is everywhere... so whatever color you paint it... it's still 'magick'. > What makes the figure of the vampire so intriguing? It's the ability to release hold on any stress in your life... because you will outlive anything that bothers you. It's the freedom to look at life very closely and really get to know it inside and out - because you have time on your side. It's also the allure of the beast that I believe is in all of us. Our dark side if you will. By embracing it you are able to control ot and use it towards a better purpose. The way that martial arts people embrace many acts that can kill or incapactiate so that they can rise above their animal instincts and become better, stronger people. It's also the imagery of beauty that hides ugieness. It teaches us that you must always look past the exterior to the person within. Though most vampires (especuilly ones described in modern day stories) are described as beautiful and powerful they hide an uglieness. It humbles me when I forget to see past some people's undesireable outer shells to their beauty within. It says that though I may look pretty on the outside to not let myself become corrupt as the vampire and become ugly on the inside. *bye* -Jayde